Home
It's hard to fly when you can't even run [entries|friends|calendar]
Stockholm_Syndrome

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

I never update anymore....=[ [12 Dec 2005|10:54pm]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | Hypnotize- System of a Down ]

Things have been so busy lately. Its pretty much school work school work school work....and every now and then i throw a litle sleep in there. keyword LITTLe.

I've been having troubles sleeping again...its annoying. Its not as bad as it used to be last year...i mean I do get some sleep now, but is irritating when I can't sleep when I wanna.

I know I thought I would love it, but I'm getting really tired of being at Dutchtown...I wanna be back at Bishop. Back where all my friends are, back where I fit in, back where I could be myself. I honestly don't have one GOOD friend at school. I mean I have people that I talk to in class nad stuff but yea. I miss being able to talk to EVERYONE at school. For some reaosn I guess I just don't fit in at Dutchtown.

So this boy called me last after school...the same one from the LSU game that It hink I miss....I hate how he knows he can play with my heart.

I work everyday of exam week cept for tuesday night. ick.

I have to be at school for 7 am tomorrow for interact meeting. I think I am doing this writing competition thing for english. Ms. Fuchs is supposed to work with me with it on Thurs. I guess we'll see how things go before I make a commitment to it though...

I think I am getting sick. damnit.


this is good enough.


Happy Birthday in 1 hour to RAECHEL.

1 Broken Break some hearts

I am really bored....you are too...just do it. [02 Nov 2005|12:35am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Best I Ever Had- Gary Allen ]

WHAT IF::


1. I died:


2. I kissed you:


3. I lived next door to you:


4. I started smoking:


5. I stole something:


6. I was hospitalized:


7. I ran away from home:


8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?



::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::


9. Personality:


10. Eyes:


11. Hair:


12. Family:



::WOULD YOU::


13. Be my friend?


14. Keep a secret if I told you one?


15. Hold my hand?


16. Take a bullet for me?


17. Keep in touch?


18. Try and solve my problems?


19. Love me?


20. Date me?



::HAVE YOU EVER::


21. Lied to make me feel better?


22. Wanted to kiss me?


23. Wanted to kill me?


24. Broke my heart?


25. Kept something important from me?


26. Thought I was unbearably annoying?



::AND MORE::


27. Who are you?


28. Are we friends?


29. When and how did we meet?


30. Describe me in one word:


31. What was your first impression?


32. Do you still think that way about me now?


33. What reminds you of me?


34. If you could give me anything, what would it be?


35. How well do you know me?


36. When's the last time you saw me?


37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?


38. Are you gonna repost this to see what I say about you?

Break some hearts

I found the photograph I was looking for... [31 Oct 2005|06:27am]
[ mood | nerdy ]
[ music | Because of you Kelly Clarkson ]

I'm listening to that right now. and its 6:30. I woke up at 6, got dressed, and was walking out the house thinking I was late. Because I am dumb. I guess I got the 6 and the 7 confused? so yea I thought I was running late and now I have nothing better to do then sit around until I need to leave because I don't want to get to school too early.

It sounds gay..but I really love that song Because of You by Kelly Clarkson.

I saw this boy on saturday at LSU. and I think I miss him....alot.

Freebird is on tv. I like this song too.

I wish someone were online so I could talk to someone instead of being bored.

Nerd Day at school? PSH. I don't even need a costume. I am a loser. and an awesome loser at that.

Break some hearts

I'm a lamp. [29 Oct 2005|11:12am]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | Halifax ]

So for Dylan's halloween party last night I was a lamp. I didn't wear my costume alot though because I couldn't see and therefor couldn't see the computer to play the music. God I am the best DJ alive hahah. It was REALLY cold out there though. But I love the cold weather. So I guess that was alright...

I don't feel like getting ready for the LSU game. My AIM is screwing up. fookCANADAeh. <- when it works, you should IM that and keep me company.

Blah my dad called me at 9 this morning..I guess I should call him back. Sidney sent me a text at like 7. Whore. hahah

This is pointles..but I'm really bored...so step off it bitch. haha

1 Broken Break some hearts

yaya [23 Oct 2005|01:34pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Fall out boy ]

I finally got a job. YAYa. Canes on coursey. Yea I am cool. Everyone should come visit me. it would be amazing.

kthanks.

2 Broken Break some hearts

I'm cool.... [21 Sep 2005|12:38pm]
I am online at school. Dang I am cool. I wish i could get on myspace though. =[
Break some hearts

Rain [11 Aug 2005|02:43pm]
[ mood | nervous ]
[ music | Fix You- Coldplay ]

Its thundering at my house right now....maybe that means it will rain all night...and then all morning tomorrow...and Dutchtown will flood.... And then lightning will strike it and it will burn down...then we won't have to go to school tomorrow...then I won't be the new kid and have to be scared...and feel like I am six....and I can stay home with my big box of crayons that I got for school last night..... and just color all day....

maybe it will happen?

Break some hearts

You look so good in blue [07 Jun 2005|12:21pm]
[ mood | devious ]
[ music | Fall Out Boy ]

http://www.myspace.com/stockholm_syndrome07

yes.....I got bored. Add me if you have one.

1 Broken Break some hearts

Fallout Boy is awesome. [03 Jun 2005|12:25pm]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner- Fallout Boy ]

Yea I decided to update again. Woo. I'm babysitting the boys right now. I am about to kill Dalton today. He hasn't really been bad though until today. He is just liek dlifhsdfkl;jhsdkfjhs today. Wow I'm glad its Friday. Idk what I am doing tonight though. I know tomorrow we are going to Blue Bayou to go see Lifehouse though. Fun stuff.

Yea that last entry....I was just REALLY bored. Yea haha. Wednesday night I went to youth group. That was pretty fun I guess...then me Colin, Daniel, Keith and Tara (Idk how to spell her name..) went to Cane's and ate and then me Daniel and Colin went back to church to get our cars and we hung out there for a lil while listening to Fallout Boy then I left.

Yesterday I watched babysat and then went to Best Buy and got the Fallout Boy CD because listening to it in Colin's car made me wanna buy it. So yea I did that and then went to CC's to waste time before my nephew's baseball game. Colin and Daniel ended up showing up to hang out there so we all just hung out there for a while. Then I went to Dylan's game. They won but I left early...so yea.


This is really boring. I'm gonna stop here. I need something to do tonight.

OH YEA. My hair is going to be BLACK by the end of the night. HOO HA.

1 Broken Break some hearts

Bored. [02 Jun 2005|12:30am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Everything- Lifehouse ]

So yea I am really bored. So I decided to put some cool songs on here (well I like them) and if you can guess what it is and who sings them then I will give you a SURPRISE. Yea I am bored MUCH. But yea...well a MAJORITY of them and you get a prize. (its going on my LJ too...) =] K!GO!!!

1.If things don't go your way, use my shoulder to lean on, if things don't go your way use my pillow to lay on, if things don't go your way use my shoulder to cry on, thats what friends are for.

2. Dad your boys about to fall, he walks the razors edge, hes on the brink of fading and hes at his bitter end. Dad your boy he used to run, you taught him how to crawl, he left home to find his own, now all he has is gone. In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you and in your head where it dwells, I'd give you my hand if you'd reach out and grab it, lets walk away from this hell....

3. Maybe in another life, I could find you there. pulled away before your time I can't deal its so unfair. and it feels and it feels like heaven's so far away, and it feels yea it feels like the world has grown cold now that you've gone away.

4. There's a good kind of pain, an insane kind of sane, when I'm around you, when I'm around you. There's a chill in the heat, feel the sky in my feet, cause I adore you, I can't ignore you....

5. Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
All I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place

6. and I can't erase the things that I've done
no I can't.....
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
how could this happen to me

7. You're in a better place I've heard a thousand time. And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you. But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry is how long must I wait to be with you. I close my eyes and I see your face. If home's where my heard is then I'm out of place. Lord won't you give me strength to make it through somehow. I've never been more homesick then now.

8. This is where I say I've had enough, no one should ever feel the way that I do now, another open wound, a trophy display of bruises, and I don't believe that I'm getting any better..waiting here w/ hopes the phone will ring and I'm thinking awful things, pretty sure that few would notice.

9. She's back on drugs again even though she knows it ain't right, she can't eve call up her friends and say help me save my life. She's so ashamed of herself that she's gone full circle. And nobody understands what its like to be this girl. So she disappears and she wasn't clear where was going.

10. Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door, I try to catch my breath again, I had much more then any time before, I have no options left again. I don't want to be the one the battles always choose, cuz inside I realize that I'm the one confused, I don't know whats worth fighting for or why I have scream, I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean, I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright, so I'm breaking the habit tonight.

11. I see your soul, its kinda grey, I see your heart, you look away. You see my wrist, I know your pain I know your purpose on your plane. Don't say a last prayer because you could never find what's this life for.

12. Hands on the mirror, can't get much clearer, can't make this all go away. Now that your bleeding, stare at the ceiling watch as it all fades away.

13.I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut, my weakness is that I care too much. my scars remind me the past is real, I tear my heart open just to feel.

14. Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong. And no one understands you. Do you ever wanna runawy? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud but no one hears you screaming. ...... You might thing I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay.

15. Sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep, I'm tired and I, I want to go to bed, sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep, and then leave me alone, Don't try to wake me in the morning cause I will be gone. Don't feel bad for me, I want you to know, deep in the cell of my heart I will feel so glad to go. sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep. I don't want to wake up on my own anymore.

16. I tried to kill the pain, but only brought more (so much more) I lay dying and I'm pouring, crimson regret, and betrayal.I'm dying, praying, bleeding, screaming. Am I too lost to be saved, am I too lost

17. She dreams of surgery and new nose, every calorie is a war, and she wishes she was dancer, and she never heard cancer, she wishes God would give her some answers, and make her feel beautiful. And I remember feeling low, and I remember losing hope, and I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped....

18.Close my eyes when it gets to sad, I think think thoughts that I know are bad......I wish I could count to ten, make everything be wonderful again....

19. How many times have you been pushed around, is anybody there, does anybody care. And how many times have your friends let you down, just open up your heart, open up your mind. life is waiting for you, its all messed up but we'll survive, oh life is waiting for you, its all messed up but we're alright.

20. I never thought I'd die alone, I laughed the loudest who'd of known, I traced the cord back to the wall, no wonder if was never plugged in at all, I took my time I hurried up, the choice was mine I didn't think enough. I'm too depressed to go one. You'll be sorry when I'm gone...

21.Late last night I was sitting down with my friends, listening to the radio. When a question was asked when a kid called in, and this is how it goes...if you only had an hour to live, what would you do? I looked around, all of my friends smiled cuz they knew..I'd be sittin at a bar drinking coors light sucking on a fat blunt packed thick, rolled tight. talking to the fine ass girl thats sitting right next to me.

22. When everything feels like the movies, yea you bleed just to know your alive....


have fun. I know it kept me occupied typing all these.....

Break some hearts

Friends? psh. [01 Jun 2005|09:51am]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | In the Sun- Howie Day ]

I don't think I have ever had a true friend in my entire life. One that I know will never leave me no matter what happends.


How pathetic am I?

5 Broken Break some hearts

Summer [29 May 2005|09:15pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Untitled- Simple Plan ]

wow its summer. And I haven't written in here in a while. of course its summer but what am I worrying about? School. Yea my dad needs to come into town. Soon. Cuz until he does I have no school to go to. So yea. Glen, come into town and register me into Dutchtown. Please and thank you.

lets see....last night I went to the Pink Floyd laser light shower with Joseph, Colin, Daniel, Brandon, Anna Laura, Jen, and Darin.It was pretty fun. I had never seen it before. I wanted to stay and hang out downtown but we didn't. Well I think Colin and Daniel did but me and Joseph went to go hand out at CC's instead and we talked and all that good stuff. Then we ended up seeing Jen and Darin at CC's again when we were getting ready to leave.

Tomorrow I wanna go on a picnic. On the levee. At sunset. Yea that would be awesome. Who wants to come?

I need to stop worrying about other people's lives. I drive myself crazy worrying about other people. Like last night I heard something and it made me wonder something about another person. And it bothered me all night. why do I care? I'm pathetic.


I miss everyone at school already. Maybe I really don't want to leave Bishop..Idk. If I haven't seen you this summer yet you should IM me and we should do something. Yea.


FOOKcanadaEH <- IM it.


I'm bored.

Break some hearts

[20 Apr 2005|11:46pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Watching Wonder Shozen ]

I decided to update since I can't sleep. Things have actually been pretty fun lately......I'll start with the weekend.Friday after detention I decided to go to CC's. Jen was there because Colin was working. He gave me a free mochasippi. Yaya. Then I went with Jen to get her hair cut and colored. That was fun too even tho it took 23434 hours. =] That night I decided to stay home and go to the crawfish boil in the back. That wasn;t too bad though.

Saturday was Prom and since Joseph, Daniel, and I were too cool to go we decided just to hang out. I met them at Woodlawn while they were sittin on the roof. Then we went to Joseph's for a bit and decided to go go celebration station. Golf was expensive tho so we went to Daniel's to get free gold passes then went to Don Carter's. That was fun stuff. Then we went to Jens and we all slept there. When I write it it doesnt sound as fun as it was. But it was fun.

Sunday we all woke up and went to church at Woodlawn and then went to Joseph's crawfish boil for his birthday.

Monday was school and POWWOW for the first time in like forever. Tuesday was our game which I fell asleep in the middle of and we lost. After the game we got back to bishop and I decided to go to the band concert. It was good. Jennifer was awesome. tee hee. I went to CCs and saw Colin for a minute. I go there like all the time now.

Today was good. At school I didn't feel good so I decided to check out. Went to my maw maws and slept. Alot. Then I went to youth group. now I am sittin here at 1130 eatin frosted flakes for dinner. We got a puppy today. I am excited. YAYA its so cute. I finished Night today. It was a good book. Theres other stuff I wanna write about but I don't feel like it. Band left to go to Disney World today. Peer Ministry is gonna be in Astroworld this weekend too. Everyone is leaving. =[

3 Broken Break some hearts

Again and Again and Again [09 Apr 2005|12:17am]
[ mood | silly ]
[ music | I Can Only Imagine- Mercy Me ]

This is the second time this week that I have updated. I really am trying to start again. Well....past few days have been fun. Last time I updated was Wednesday night? think so. Well. Thursday Joseph became the most awesome guy by buying a dozen pink roses and giving us girls each one. It seriously made my day. I felt so loved. Joseph Paul Craft is the most awesome male ever. That was a good day.

Today was fun too. Boring day at school but then afterwards I had detention and brought Melissa home then went to my maw maws for a lil while. Then I called Joseph and we went and hung out at the mall. fun cookie cake and icees and talks and counting. Then we left there and went to his house. We downloaded ringtones listened to music and I played N64 and owned. I tried to play Joseph's guitar but failed. =[ Then Daniel met us there and we hung out for a lil while longer. While we were at the mall Colin tried to call to get me to come visit him at work so when I finally left Joseph's I went to CCs.When I was leaving Joseph's house Daniel and Joseph decided to jump all over my car. They jumped on the hood and I backed up. Then they just kept diving across the hood. I love those kids. Well cept Daniel cuz he's a loser. Just kidding...ok not really. He is a loser, but I still love him. Jen was there at CCs too so me and Jen talked and stuff while Colin worked and we had fun. Then I left and came here. Now I am sorta hungry. But I don't want to be fat and eat.

I'm really bored. Kbye.

Break some hearts

Holy Geez I am updating again.... [06 Apr 2005|10:45pm]
[ mood | touched ]
[ music | Homesick- Mercy Me ]

So yea I decided to update again. I shall try to update more often. Because I fail at this journal since I got a DA account.

My dad was in town Monday so that means I got new shoes. They are P.I.M.P and I got NEON socks because I am awesome. My dad upsets me though sometimes....but oh well...enough talk abotu Glen.

I love knowing that I made someones day better. Someone let me know that something I gave them always makes them feel better and it made me feel WONDERFUL. Like I feel awesome right now. I am sad that they are sad but I feel good knowing I helped them. It made my night. Even more then Daniel being a frog and jumping across the parking lot.

I got 2 Mercy Me CDs on Sunday. They are awesome. I've been listeing to Undone like nonstop. I love it.


Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
All I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place
But when I am stuck, I can't move
When I don't know what I should do
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through
But I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising your name
You're the one that keeping my heart beating
I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising your name
That's the only way that I'll find healing
Keep Singing- Mercy Me

I am going find me a kickbutt badmitton racket....because it is awesome.

Break some hearts

[03 Mar 2005|10:59pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Van Wilder ]

So I decided to surprise everyone and update. So yea. Uhm. I don't have anythign to say. Spring break was awesome. I did something pretty much every night so that beat the boredom issue. My whole spring break was pretty much spend with Joseph, Daniel, Jen, Colin, Sarah, Anna Laura, Brandon and Maria. Shea I <3 them. I have a feeling I will be geting no sleep tonight. I need to go take a shower. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow.

right now I am talking to Tieky McGeeky. We have old men soul mates. Cuz we are awesome.

I am watching Van Wilder. I am bored. I think I will watch the Spongebob movie in a few minutes....

Today was good....I woke up and got dressed and went to Dylan's baseball games...they got first place in their tournament! YAYA! But I found that out later cuz I had to leave during the championship game to go to church....then went to 6:00 mass at STM and then went to Brandon's to watch the LSU basketball game. It was me, Daniel, Brandon, Anna Laura, Colin and Kyle. IT was fun. Even tho they lost. Oh well.

Ok I am bored and I Think this is long enough.

1 Broken Break some hearts

I'm bored. [10 Feb 2005|04:27pm]
[ mood | exanimate ]

If you read this, even if i don't speak to you often,you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

Yea it's gay...but it gives me a reason to update right? So do it.


I don't know what the mood means...but the star is fat. So it is awesome.

13 Broken Break some hearts

Break down? Don't mind if I do.... [24 Jan 2005|10:12pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]
[ music | nothing ]

I am updating just for Raechel. That shlut. I got a new icon. Its hawt. MAKE I T COUNT.

tonight was youth group. That's about it. Everyone finds it so hard to believe I have started doing church things. That's kinda sad and makes me sorta feel bad.

Tonight me and Jaiden sat in my car blaring JoJo. Because we are awesome like that.

I don't know what else to put. K.bye.

3 Broken Break some hearts

Pants Pants Pants [30 Dec 2004|06:37pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Napoleon Dynamite ]

Today was filled with lots of funness. Most of it involed trying on the biggest size pants available at Old Navy. Me and Stephanie wrote "Honk if you <3 Jesus" on the back of my car and "I<3 Jesus" on the back windows but only ONE car honked at me. I was so disappointed. Well. Uhm Idk what else to update with so uhm. Who wants pictures? I know I do.


Old Navy fat people pants are awesome )

5 Broken Break some hearts

Christmasness is finally over. [26 Dec 2004|12:34pm]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | Bless the Broken Road- Rascal Flatts ]

Well I haven't updated in like a month. I think Gabby was the LAST person tocomment on my last entry. So she gets a prize. Unless it was someone else who was last. I'll have to check it out.

Christmas was actually good this year. I thought it was going to be Horrible Christmas III. Christmas Eve my grandparents, sister, nephew, and his family came over (yea i have a complicated family.) We opened presents and I got lots of fun stuff!!! I'll put what I got in an LJcut later. I ended up not going to sleep until like 230. This new medicine keeps me awake. I kept periodically going outside and just standing on the steps just feeling the sleet on my face. I was sittin on the steps the first time before the sleet but after it was too wet to sit.

I had to wake up at 8 on christmas. I told Merry Christmas to my family and watched as Tyler and Dalton showed me all their new stuff. Which included watching Dalton and his new 4-wheeler. Geez it was precious. Then I went to church and then lots of family running around. Today is my grandma's birthday. My brother got her a funny card. It was like "On your birthday you can have fun without even touching a drink. ::inside:: Here use this. ::little straw tapes inside::" I thought it was hilarious. I laughed alot. Because my grandma drinks alot. Heh heh.

Christmasness )

2 Broken Break some hearts

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]

Advertisement