It's hard to fly when you can't even run

I never update anymore....=[

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 05:04:21 GMT

Things have been so busy lately. Its pretty much school work school work school work....and every now and then i throw a litle sleep in there. keyword LITTLe.

I've been having troubles sleeping again...its annoying. Its not as bad as it used to be last year...i mean I do get some sleep now, but is irritating when I can't sleep when I wanna.

I know I thought I would love it, but I'm getting really tired of being at Dutchtown...I wanna be back at Bishop. Back where all my friends are, back where I fit in, back where I could be myself. I honestly don't have one GOOD friend at school. I mean I have people that I talk to in class nad stuff but yea. I miss being able to talk to EVERYONE at school. For some reaosn I guess I just don't fit in at Dutchtown.

So this boy called me last after school...the same one from the LSU game that It hink I miss....I hate how he knows he can play with my heart.

I work everyday of exam week cept for tuesday night. ick.

I have to be at school for 7 am tomorrow for interact meeting. I think I am doing this writing competition thing for english. Ms. Fuchs is supposed to work with me with it on Thurs. I guess we'll see how things go before I make a commitment to it though...

I think I am getting sick. damnit.

this is good enough.

Happy Birthday in 1 hour to RAECHEL.

I am really bored....you are too...just do it.

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 06:36:07 GMT

WHAT IF::

1. I died:

2. I kissed you:

3. I lived next door to you:

4. I started smoking:

5. I stole something:

6. I was hospitalized:

7. I ran away from home:

8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::

9. Personality:

10. Eyes:

11. Hair:

12. Family:

::WOULD YOU::

13. Be my friend?

14. Keep a secret if I told you one?

15. Hold my hand?

16. Take a bullet for me?

17. Keep in touch?

18. Try and solve my problems?

19. Love me?

20. Date me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::

21. Lied to make me feel better?

22. Wanted to kiss me?

23. Wanted to kill me?

24. Broke my heart?

25. Kept something important from me?

26. Thought I was unbearably annoying?

::AND MORE::

27. Who are you?

28. Are we friends?

29. When and how did we meet?

30. Describe me in one word:

31. What was your first impression?

32. Do you still think that way about me now?

33. What reminds you of me?

34. If you could give me anything, what would it be?

35. How well do you know me?

36. When's the last time you saw me?

37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

38. Are you gonna repost this to see what I say about you?

I found the photograph I was looking for...

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 12:34:33 GMT

I'm listening to that right now. and its 6:30. I woke up at 6, got dressed, and was walking out the house thinking I was late. Because I am dumb. I guess I got the 6 and the 7 confused? so yea I thought I was running late and now I have nothing better to do then sit around until I need to leave because I don't want to get to school too early.

It sounds gay..but I really love that song Because of You by Kelly Clarkson.

I saw this boy on saturday at LSU. and I think I miss him....alot.

Freebird is on tv. I like this song too.

I wish someone were online so I could talk to someone instead of being bored.

Nerd Day at school? PSH. I don't even need a costume. I am a loser. and an awesome loser at that.

I'm a lamp.

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 16:16:49 GMT

So for Dylan's halloween party last night I was a lamp. I didn't wear my costume alot though because I couldn't see and therefor couldn't see the computer to play the music. God I am the best DJ alive hahah. It was REALLY cold out there though. But I love the cold weather. So I guess that was alright...

I don't feel like getting ready for the LSU game. My AIM is screwing up. fookCANADAeh. <- when it works, you should IM that and keep me company.

Blah my dad called me at 9 this morning..I guess I should call him back. Sidney sent me a text at like 7. Whore. hahah

This is pointles..but I'm really bored...so step off it bitch. haha

yaya

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 18:36:39 GMT

I finally got a job. YAYa. Canes on coursey. Yea I am cool. Everyone should come visit me. it would be amazing.

kthanks.

I'm cool....

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 17:37:40 GMT

I am online at school. Dang I am cool. I wish i could get on myspace though. =[

Rain

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 19:55:50 GMT

Its thundering at my house right now....maybe that means it will rain all night...and then all morning tomorrow...and Dutchtown will flood.... And then lightning will strike it and it will burn down...then we won't have to go to school tomorrow...then I won't be the new kid and have to be scared...and feel like I am six....and I can stay home with my big box of crayons that I got for school last night..... and just color all day....

maybe it will happen?

You look so good in blue

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 17:30:36 GMT

http://www.myspace.com/stockholm_syndrome07

yes.....I got bored. Add me if you have one.

Fallout Boy is awesome.

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 17:44:16 GMT

Yea I decided to update again. Woo. I'm babysitting the boys right now. I am about to kill Dalton today. He hasn't really been bad though until today. He is just liek dlifhsdfkl;jhsdkfjhs today. Wow I'm glad its Friday. Idk what I am doing tonight though. I know tomorrow we are going to Blue Bayou to go see Lifehouse though. Fun stuff.

Yea that last entry....I was just REALLY bored. Yea haha. Wednesday night I went to youth group. That was pretty fun I guess...then me Colin, Daniel, Keith and Tara (Idk how to spell her name..) went to Cane's and ate and then me Daniel and Colin went back to church to get our cars and we hung out there for a lil while listening to Fallout Boy then I left.

Yesterday I watched babysat and then went to Best Buy and got the Fallout Boy CD because listening to it in Colin's car made me wanna buy it. So yea I did that and then went to CC's to waste time before my nephew's baseball game. Colin and Daniel ended up showing up to hang out there so we all just hung out there for a while. Then I went to Dylan's game. They won but I left early...so yea.

This is really boring. I'm gonna stop here. I need something to do tonight.

OH YEA. My hair is going to be BLACK by the end of the night. HOO HA.

Bored.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 05:43:34 GMT

So yea I am really bored. So I decided to put some cool songs on here (well I like them) and if you can guess what it is and who sings them then I will give you a SURPRISE. Yea I am bored MUCH. But yea...well a MAJORITY of them and you get a prize. (its going on my LJ too...) =] K!GO!!!

1.If things don't go your way, use my shoulder to lean on, if things don't go your way use my pillow to lay on, if things don't go your way use my shoulder to cry on, thats what friends are for.

2. Dad your boys about to fall, he walks the razors edge, hes on the brink of fading and hes at his bitter end. Dad your boy he used to run, you taught him how to crawl, he left home to find his own, now all he has is gone. In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you and in your head where it dwells, I'd give you my hand if you'd reach out and grab it, lets walk away from this hell....

3. Maybe in another life, I could find you there. pulled away before your time I can't deal its so unfair. and it feels and it feels like heaven's so far away, and it feels yea it feels like the world has grown cold now that you've gone away.

4. There's a good kind of pain, an insane kind of sane, when I'm around you, when I'm around you. There's a chill in the heat, feel the sky in my feet, cause I adore you, I can't ignore you....

5. Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
All I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place

6. and I can't erase the things that I've done
no I can't.....
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
how could this happen to me

7. You're in a better place I've heard a thousand time. And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you. But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry is how long must I wait to be with you. I close my eyes and I see your face. If home's where my heard is then I'm out of place. Lord won't you give me strength to make it through somehow. I've never been more homesick then now.

8. This is where I say I've had enough, no one should ever feel the way that I do now, another open wound, a trophy display of bruises, and I don't believe that I'm getting any better..waiting here w/ hopes the phone will ring and I'm thinking awful things, pretty sure that few would notice.

9. She's back on drugs again even though she knows it ain't right, she can't eve call up her friends and say help me save my life. She's so ashamed of herself that she's gone full circle. And nobody understands what its like to be this girl. So she disappears and she wasn't clear where was going.

10. Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door, I try to catch my breath again, I had much more then any time before, I have no options left again. I don't want to be the one the battles always choose, cuz inside I realize that I'm the one confused, I don't know whats worth fighting for or why I have scream, I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean, I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright, so I'm breaking the habit tonight.

11. I see your soul, its kinda grey, I see your heart, you look away. You see my wrist, I know your pain I know your purpose on your plane. Don't say a last prayer because you could never find what's this life for.

12. Hands on the mirror, can't get much clearer, can't make this all go away. Now that your bleeding, stare at the ceiling watch as it all fades away.

13.I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut, my weakness is that I care too much. my scars remind me the past is real, I tear my heart open just to feel.

14. Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong. And no one understands you. Do you ever wanna runawy? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud but no one hears you screaming. ...... You might thing I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay.

15. Sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep, I'm tired and I, I want to go to bed, sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep, and then leave me alone, Don't try to wake me in the morning cause I will be gone. Don't feel bad for me, I want you to know, deep in the cell of my heart I will feel so glad to go. sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep. I don't want to wake up on my own anymore.

16. I tried to kill the pain, but only brought more (so much more) I lay dying and I'm pouring, crimson regret, and betrayal.I'm dying, praying, bleeding, screaming. Am I too lost to be saved, am I too lost

17. She dreams of surgery and new nose, every calorie is a war, and she wishes she was dancer, and she never heard cancer, she wishes God would give her some answers, and make her feel beautiful. And I remember feeling low, and I remember losing hope, and I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped....

18.Close my eyes when it gets to sad, I think think thoughts that I know are bad......I wish I could count to ten, make everything be wonderful again....

19. How many times have you been pushed around, is anybody there, does anybody care. And how many times have your friends let you down, just open up your heart, open up your mind. life is waiting for you, its all messed up but we'll survive, oh life is waiting for you, its all messed up but we're alright.

20. I never thought I'd die alone, I laughed the loudest who'd of known, I traced the cord back to the wall, no wonder if was never plugged in at all, I took my time I hurried up, the choice was mine I didn't think enough. I'm too depressed to go one. You'll be sorry when I'm gone...

21.Late last night I was sitting down with my friends, listening to the radio. When a question was asked when a kid called in, and this is how it goes...if you only had an hour to live, what would you do? I looked around, all of my friends smiled cuz they knew..I'd be sittin at a bar drinking coors light sucking on a fat blunt packed thick, rolled tight. talking to the fine ass girl thats sitting right next to me.

22. When everything feels like the movies, yea you bleed just to know your alive....

have fun. I know it kept me occupied typing all these.....

Friends? psh.

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 14:58:39 GMT

I don't think I have ever had a true friend in my entire life. One that I know will never leave me no matter what happends.

How pathetic am I?

Summer

Mon, 30 May 2005 02:36:40 GMT

wow its summer. And I haven't written in here in a while. of course its summer but what am I worrying about? School. Yea my dad needs to come into town. Soon. Cuz until he does I have no school to go to. So yea. Glen, come into town and register me into Dutchtown. Please and thank you.

lets see....last night I went to the Pink Floyd laser light shower with Joseph, Colin, Daniel, Brandon, Anna Laura, Jen, and Darin.It was pretty fun. I had never seen it before. I wanted to stay and hang out downtown but we didn't. Well I think Colin and Daniel did but me and Joseph went to go hand out at CC's instead and we talked and all that good stuff. Then we ended up seeing Jen and Darin at CC's again when we were getting ready to leave.

Tomorrow I wanna go on a picnic. On the levee. At sunset. Yea that would be awesome. Who wants to come?

I need to stop worrying about other people's lives. I drive myself crazy worrying about other people. Like last night I heard something and it made me wonder something about another person. And it bothered me all night. why do I care? I'm pathetic.

I miss everyone at school already. Maybe I really don't want to leave Bishop..Idk. If I haven't seen you this summer yet you should IM me and we should do something. Yea.

FOOKcanadaEH <- IM it.

I'm bored.

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 05:01:05 GMT

I decided to update since I can't sleep. Things have actually been pretty fun lately......I'll start with the weekend.Friday after detention I decided to go to CC's. Jen was there because Colin was working. He gave me a free mochasippi. Yaya. Then I went with Jen to get her hair cut and colored. That was fun too even tho it took 23434 hours. =] That night I decided to stay home and go to the crawfish boil in the back. That wasn;t too bad though.

Saturday was Prom and since Joseph, Daniel, and I were too cool to go we decided just to hang out. I met them at Woodlawn while they were sittin on the roof. Then we went to Joseph's for a bit and decided to go go celebration station. Golf was expensive tho so we went to Daniel's to get free gold passes then went to Don Carter's. That was fun stuff. Then we went to Jens and we all slept there. When I write it it doesnt sound as fun as it was. But it was fun.

Sunday we all woke up and went to church at Woodlawn and then went to Joseph's crawfish boil for his birthday.

Monday was school and POWWOW for the first time in like forever. Tuesday was our game which I fell asleep in the middle of and we lost. After the game we got back to bishop and I decided to go to the band concert. It was good. Jennifer was awesome. tee hee. I went to CCs and saw Colin for a minute. I go there like all the time now.

Today was good. At school I didn't feel good so I decided to check out. Went to my maw maws and slept. Alot. Then I went to youth group. now I am sittin here at 1130 eatin frosted flakes for dinner. We got a puppy today. I am excited. YAYA its so cute. I finished Night today. It was a good book. Theres other stuff I wanna write about but I don't feel like it. Band left to go to Disney World today. Peer Ministry is gonna be in Astroworld this weekend too. Everyone is leaving. =[

Again and Again and Again

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 05:33:54 GMT

This is the second time this week that I have updated. I really am trying to start again. Well....past few days have been fun. Last time I updated was Wednesday night? think so. Well. Thursday Joseph became the most awesome guy by buying a dozen pink roses and giving us girls each one. It seriously made my day. I felt so loved. Joseph Paul Craft is the most awesome male ever. That was a good day.

Today was fun too. Boring day at school but then afterwards I had detention and brought Melissa home then went to my maw maws for a lil while. Then I called Joseph and we went and hung out at the mall. fun cookie cake and icees and talks and counting. Then we left there and went to his house. We downloaded ringtones listened to music and I played N64 and owned. I tried to play Joseph's guitar but failed. =[ Then Daniel met us there and we hung out for a lil while longer. While we were at the mall Colin tried to call to get me to come visit him at work so when I finally left Joseph's I went to CCs.When I was leaving Joseph's house Daniel and Joseph decided to jump all over my car. They jumped on the hood and I backed up. Then they just kept diving across the hood. I love those kids. Well cept Daniel cuz he's a loser. Just kidding...ok not really. He is a loser, but I still love him. Jen was there at CCs too so me and Jen talked and stuff while Colin worked and we had fun. Then I left and came here. Now I am sorta hungry. But I don't want to be fat and eat.

I'm really bored. Kbye.

Holy Geez I am updating again....

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 03:52:56 GMT

So yea I decided to update again. I shall try to update more often. Because I fail at this journal since I got a DA account.

My dad was in town Monday so that means I got new shoes. They are P.I.M.P and I got NEON socks because I am awesome. My dad upsets me though sometimes....but oh well...enough talk abotu Glen.

I love knowing that I made someones day better. Someone let me know that something I gave them always makes them feel better and it made me feel WONDERFUL. Like I feel awesome right now. I am sad that they are sad but I feel good knowing I helped them. It made my night. Even more then Daniel being a frog and jumping across the parking lot.

I got 2 Mercy Me CDs on Sunday. They are awesome. I've been listeing to Undone like nonstop. I love it.

Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
All I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place
But when I am stuck, I can't move
When I don't know what I should do
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through
But I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising your name
You're the one that keeping my heart beating
I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising your name
That's the only way that I'll find healing
Keep Singing- Mercy Me

I am going find me a kickbutt badmitton racket....because it is awesome.

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 04:16:30 GMT

So I decided to surprise everyone and update. So yea. Uhm. I don't have anythign to say. Spring break was awesome. I did something pretty much every night so that beat the boredom issue. My whole spring break was pretty much spend with Joseph, Daniel, Jen, Colin, Sarah, Anna Laura, Brandon and Maria. Shea I <3 them. I have a feeling I will be geting no sleep tonight. I need to go take a shower. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow.

right now I am talking to Tieky McGeeky. We have old men soul mates. Cuz we are awesome.

I am watching Van Wilder. I am bored. I think I will watch the Spongebob movie in a few minutes....

Today was good....I woke up and got dressed and went to Dylan's baseball games...they got first place in their tournament! YAYA! But I found that out later cuz I had to leave during the championship game to go to church....then went to 6:00 mass at STM and then went to Brandon's to watch the LSU basketball game. It was me, Daniel, Brandon, Anna Laura, Colin and Kyle. IT was fun. Even tho they lost. Oh well.

Ok I am bored and I Think this is long enough.

I'm bored.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 22:44:49 GMT

If you read this, even if i don't speak to you often,you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

Yea it's gay...but it gives me a reason to update right? So do it.

I don't know what the mood means...but the star is fat. So it is awesome.

Break down? Don't mind if I do....

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 04:31:58 GMT

I am updating just for Raechel. That shlut. I got a new icon. Its hawt. MAKE I T COUNT.

tonight was youth group. That's about it. Everyone finds it so hard to believe I have started doing church things. That's kinda sad and makes me sorta feel bad.

Tonight me and Jaiden sat in my car blaring JoJo. Because we are awesome like that.

I don't know what else to put. K.bye.

Pants Pants Pants

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 01:46:36 GMT

Today was filled with lots of funness. Most of it involed trying on the biggest size pants available at Old Navy. Me and Stephanie wrote "Honk if you <3 Jesus" on the back of my car and "I<3 Jesus" on the back windows but only ONE car honked at me. I was so disappointed. Well. Uhm Idk what else to update with so uhm. Who wants pictures? I know I do.

Fat people pants anyone?

You know you want to tap that ass.

Stephanie bought awseome yellow shoes.

Christmasness is finally over.

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 18:56:17 GMT

Well I haven't updated in like a month. I think Gabby was the LAST person tocomment on my last entry. So she gets a prize. Unless it was someone else who was last. I'll have to check it out.

Christmas was actually good this year. I thought it was going to be Horrible Christmas III. Christmas Eve my grandparents, sister, nephew, and his family came over (yea i have a complicated family.) We opened presents and I got lots of fun stuff!!! I'll put what I got in an LJcut later. I ended up not going to sleep until like 230. This new medicine keeps me awake. I kept periodically going outside and just standing on the steps just feeling the sleet on my face. I was sittin on the steps the first time before the sleet but after it was too wet to sit.

I had to wake up at 8 on christmas. I told Merry Christmas to my family and watched as Tyler and Dalton showed me all their new stuff. Which included watching Dalton and his new 4-wheeler. Geez it was precious. Then I went to church and then lots of family running around. Today is my grandma's birthday. My brother got her a funny card. It was like "On your birthday you can have fun without even touching a drink. ::inside:: Here use this. ::little straw tapes inside::" I thought it was hilarious. I laughed alot. Because my grandma drinks alot. Heh heh.

Donnie Darko
Napoleon Dynamite
New shoes- pink and black..duh
New jacket
Really comfy fuzzy pink socks
Pajamas (one pair with KOALAS on them.)
Happy Bunny hats
Happy Bunny calender and pins
Happy Bunny Journal
Happy Bunny bracelets and earrings
Happy Bunny sweatshirt
Monkey slippers that make noise
PINK perfume
Tommy Girl perfume
Alarm Clock
Money..LOTS of money
Happy Bunny misfortune cookies

Thats all the stuff that I LIKED...I got other lil thins but those arent important haha...

WIN A PRIZE!!!

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 01:56:49 GMT

First off, Happy 16th Birthday Deanna. Hope you had a wonderfully happy birthday, you deserve it.

Today was good. Yesterday me and Gina decided that Mrs. Redmond REALLY loves scotch. Yea. I got a cappacino (spelling?) tonight because it was all cold so now I am all awake. Hooray.

Wow. It is now December. Where did the year go?

K. So no one comments on here anymore. Whoever makes comment number 100 wins a prize. You can comment more then once but you can't post like 60 in a row. K. GO!

I don't feel like a normal update....

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 07:01:05 GMT

Since it would take FOREVER to update recently and I am lazy, I decided to do fun survey instead. So yea I am cool. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNON FAIR CARNEY!!!! It's past 12, so you know how we do.

1. Your horoscope: Virgo
2. Single or taken?: Taken
3. If taken, by who? Eric
4. Have you ever been seriously hurt by the person you loved?: Yes...
5. What would be your reason if you turned suicidal?: uh I wouldnt do that...stupid
6. Found any interesting friends in the past year?: YES!!! I have found interesting friends last night.
7. Country or classic?: country
8. A cute idiot or an ugly smart guy?: ummm this is shallow but cute idiot?
9. Are you in a stable relationship with your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes..or at least I hope me and Eric are?
10. You'd expect a text message from?: Um...Jenny, Sarah, Sidney or Eric
11. Have best friends that are opposite in gender?: Yes
12. What do you like doing when you are depressed?: Talk to my friends or listen to music...especially my bestest friends like HAIELY ELIZABETH ROSE TARLETON or sometimes I talk to Jen
13. Ever been hurt by love?: yes
17. Will you ever make the same mistake again with love? I'd like to say no but I know I probably will....
18. Ever hated anyone like hell?: I don't think I can hate anyone..like I say I do but then like the next day I'm ok with them..
19. Give one word that best describes what you're feeling now?: awake...damn school tomorrow
20. Do you believe in yourself? depends..if I have people backing me up then sometimes I do
21. Ever purposely, physically hurt yourself?: Why would I do something stupid like that?
22. Motto?: I don't really have one...
23. Have you ever had *extra* feelings about your best friend in the opposite gender?: yes...heh
24. If yes, what did you do about it, if no, what would you do about it?: I didn't really pay much attention because I was afraid of what it would do to us
25. Is fame and money the most important thing in your life?: No, not at all.
26. Do you make any movements or sounds while you are sleeping?: Idk...I wouldn't know..because after all, I am asleep.
27. Are you difficult to wake up?: I wake up VERY easily...like if somone opens my door I wake up.
28. How often do you sleep?: Whenver I CAN. Like right now, I can't.
29. Are you content with that?: No
30. Lastly, have you ever thought you were perfect?: Never

+ 01. name: KRISTINE JO VIATOR!
+ 02. nicknames: umm Krissy(most obvious one..) K, Kris, QUEEN(gee thanks Paige) and a buncha other random ones...
+ 03. sex: female
+ 04. birthday: 9-3-88
+ 05. age: 16
+ 06. star sign: virgo
+ 07. place of birth: Baton Rouge, Woman's Hospital to be more specific
+ 08. current residence: Carville, otherwise known as the middle of no where.
+ 09. hair color: brown
+ 10. eye color: greenish bluish
+ 11. height: 5'3
+ 12. weight: like I would tell everyone how much my fat ass weighs...psh
+ 13. writing hand: LEFTY

____BODY iLLS + SKiLLS
+ 14. do you bite your nails: nope
+ 15. can you roll your tongue: yea
+ 16. can you raise one eyebrown at a time: yep
+ 17. can you blow smoke rings: no...
+ 18. can you blow spit bubbles: yes..haha
+ 19. can you cross your eyes: yep
+ 20. can you flip your eyelids out: nooope..and it hurts to try
+ 21. tattoos and where:no..a couple tho...
+ 22. piercings and where: NINE!!! HECK YES..hahah I got my new one last night. 5 in one ear and 4 in the other. What can I say I'm a freak.
+ 23. do you make your bed daily: That's a negative ghost rider.

____CLOTHES
+ 24. which shoe goes on first: I think right?
+ 36. speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone: hahahah YES, and broke a mirror in the process
+ 37. how much money is usually in your wallet: depends...right now I have like 3$ and a couple quarters.
+ 38. what jewelry do you wear 24/7: I always, let me reiterate ALWAYS wear my necklace. I basically NEVER take it off. Not in almost 2 years.
+ 39. whats sexiest on a guy: Smile, ah it just makes me melt. And voice. And eyes.
+ 40. whats sexiest on a girl: I never really thought of that?
+ 41. would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great: Depends where I'm going, what's the occasion and so on and so on....
____FOOD
+ 42. do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: twirly twirly twirly
+ 43. how many cereals are in your cabinet: Ummmm idk? COCOA PUFFS IKNO!!! someone come eat the rest so I can have the Shrek 2 iron on on the back of the box. Please and Thank you.
44. what utensils do you use eating pizza: Uhm. My hands?
+ 45. do you cook: Yea I make a mean bowl of Speghetti O's
____GROOMiNG
+ 046. how often do you brush your teeth: everyday
+ 047. how often do you shower/bathe: everyday
+ 048. how long do these showers last: depends on if I need to hurry or if I can enjoy it.
+ 049. hair drying method: usually I just fall asleep with it wet..unless I'm going somewhere important then I'll blow dry it..
+ 050. do you paint your nails: Yup. I did earlier as a matter of fact. Black.
____MANNERS
+ 51. do you swear: Yes. Quite alot actually. I need to cut it back.
+ 52. do you spit or swallow: WOW. Talk about personal....
+ 53. do you spit in public: nope. Unless you count sunflower seeds?
+ 54. do you pee in the shower: Thats a negative.

____iN + AROUND
+ 55. the cd player: Papa Roach. Which I am currently listening to.
+ 56. person you talk most on the phone with: Umm. I don't talk on the phone much anymore. The last person that called me though was Sidney?
+ 57. what color is your bedroom: white
+ 58. do you use an alarm clock: yea.. as much as I hate them though. And just when I NEED to.
+ 59. name one thing your obsesed with: HAPPY BUNNY! duh.
+ 60. window seat or aisle: like on a bus? HA. I don't ride the bus anymore. HECK YES.
+ 61. whats your sleeping position: IDK. Depends. I never sleep on my right side though. Idk I'm weird.
+ 62. what kind of bed do you like: one that is good to sleep on.
+ 63. in hot weather do you use a blanket: yep. I like to wrap my hands in it. + 64. do you snore: NOPE
+ 67. do you sleepwalk: I used to. Not anymore.
+ 68. do you talk in your sleep: Yet again I used to. But if I still do then Idk if I do cuz I am sleeping during that time.
+ 69. sleep with a stuffed animal: well I have them on my bed but I don't sleep with them.
+70. how about the light on: no..well the monitor kinda lights up the room but I can sleep with it on or off.
+ 71. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on: i usually sleep with the radio but lately I've been sleeping in silence.

____WHEN WAS THE LAST TiME YOU
+ 72. had sex: nope
+ 73. were kissed or kissed someone: last night.
+ 74. watched bambi: a LONG time ago.
+ 75. cried: Earlier in the car when Concrete Angel came on
+ 76. talked on the phone: like an hour ago with Sidney
+ 77. read a book: right now we are reading A Seperate Peace in english and I'm on and off reading Purpose Driven Life
+ 78. punched someone: I don't remember...

____THE FUTURE
+ 079. where do you see yourself in 10 years: lets see..I'll be 26..hopefully living a good life.
+ 080. who are you gonna be married to: Whoever asks me? Idk.
+ 081. how many kids do you want to have: 2 or 3 or maybe 1
+ 082. your profession: i want to be a psychologist or one of those head doctors...

<3 Eric.

i cant think of a good subject as usual...

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 04:05:48 GMT

i never really update this anymore...well i mean i do but i like its always vague....o well...i guess ill do a good one tonight..

i just took an extremely hot shower. i didnt mean for it to be that hot but it felt good to have a really hot shower...just like a bubble bath..just to think..having to scrub off intricate smily faces that people draw on your elbow with a permanent marker isnt as fun tho..when i was making my way down the hall i ran into one of the boxes in there..it hurt..stupid dark hallways filled with boxes...

my brother told me to start packing my room today. =[ while packing i found old things that made me sad and miss the past. i wont name everything but some things almost made me cry. but on the other hand i do love it when you see something that would be totally meaningless to anyone else but you just sit there and smile, and no one understand why but you. right now i have about 4 boxes full of shit. my room is starting to look naked..i dont like that. esp my bed thing. all the shelves and the top things are empty. i dont want to move. esp to carville. its so far away. this will be my 3rd house in less then 2 years. sucks.

i got to hang out with brittany and jesi this weekend. crazy kids. esp brittany. wow gotta love the girl. we had us a nice lil talk last night. props to B for teh sign too..haha.. i found out this weekend i can sleep just about anywhere if im tired enough. like in a car thats hot all curled up. i slept for about an hour. then i found out that i can fall asleep all curled up in a salon chair too. jesi had an appointment to get her hair done at the place in the mall at 9 and wanted me to go with her so i did. even tho me and brittany go to her house at like 445 and fell asleep about 5. had to get up at like 830. and had no sleep the night before as well. so i was tired. i saw lambert in the mall tho...hahah gotta love that girl.that was after i woke up tho...heh heh

this is longer then i thought..i get my license some day this week...no car tho cuz my dad is a bastard..incase i havent mentioned that in here yet..today was the end of the 90 days..so i can get it whenever now. so excited.

i dont feel like doing homework..i dont even know if i have any homework..o well..actually i do have geometry but ill do that when i get to school tomorrow..shit i have to do vocab..english sucks a big nut...i hate that class.....so fucking boring..

i think this is just about long enough..

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 21:20:45 GMT

i have nothing better to do so i guess ill update....i havent updated since wednesday night...

well this weekend was just funness.....so no need to really go into that...sunday we had the student council meeting...we made alot of plans for homecoming week..i hope we get to do alot of the things we planned...i also called jen sunday night...and just kinda out poured everything...i love her so much she always listens an never judges...jen is def the coolest senior ever..

monday was great...i felt good all day after me and jens talk. i dont remember much that happend tho. too far away. seniors were gone monday and tuesday because of the retreat. tuesday i was in a bad mood most of the day cuz i didnt feel good. but then when jenny was going to bring me home brittany called and said NO SCHOOL wednesday or thursday because of the hurricane. so duh we had a HURRICANE PARTY. hahah it was GREAT. we went to jans.

today has just been lay around the house sick day. tonight im going to jennys again tho. cuz my brother is in new orleans cuz his troops or unit or whatev you called them were sent there to help with the hurricane. so school for one day.. how retarded?

well im bored and thats about it for my week. it was alot more fun then it sounds but yea im kinda blankin on everything. and some things such as my weekend and hurricane party i would rather not get into detail with cuz that would take wayyyyy too long.

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 04:37:20 GMT

well today will be the last day i can update till like sunday so i will....cuz tomorrow night i have to stay at my maw maws and then friday night ima be wit megan and then saturday is LSU game and stayin with jenny....sunday morning workday for softball...

today was good....got progress reports....

Geometry- 99 A
English- 89 B
Religion- 98 A
Biology- 94 A
Spanish II- 90 B
World History- 94 A
PE- 94 A

so i am pretty happy with my grades...no complaining here....although 3 are 94s so i will have to watch those...

i shoved 10s into my ears today...they hurt..i think it may be because i only had the 12s in since thursday...so not even a week...o well im impatient...

well like i said this weekend is already pretty filled out...o well...i hope this is as good of a weekend as i am planning on it being...